DeepDarkDangerous: November 2014

Saturday 29 November 2014

Stay

Tell me of your dreams
Your plans to drown out
Those screams when your
Alone and the darkness
Calls to you by name and
History
Tell me of your dreams
In your blindness of despair
As you place those once
Close to you beneath the
Coldness of the ground never
Again to be found among
The living
Tell me of your dreams now
That your darkness is here to
Stay

Friday 28 November 2014

Stay out of my head xx

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November 29, 2014

I think we got lost along the way
No words remembered nor what
We wanted to say
Glazed eyes where dreams used to be
Do you remember do you still see me
The way I see you or at least I used to
I think we got lost along the way
Somewhere between I love you and is this how it is meant to be

Sunday 16 November 2014

A passerby in life

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April 2, 2011

To find those things

That make you cry

That make you human

To be more than just

A passerby in life

To touch those

Souls that seem

To lose

True meaning

To speak such words

Of encouragement

Without at first

A screening for

Manipulations

Sake

To find those things

That make you cry

And know you

Are alive

the shadowThat is left of me

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November 16, 2014

Did it happen that way

Is my mind playing tricks on me

Are those truly the words you did say

Surely I am mistaken

You could not be so cruel

Or did you intend for my heart

And mind to be broken

No chance of repair for truly

You no longer care for me

For if you could see the shadow

That is left of me you would somehow

Change your mind

When they find me you will ask

Was it something I did or said

Was there some other way I could have

Acted that would not have resulted

In your being dead

Those questions you will ask merely

For self preservation and a farce

For you saw it in my eyes those

Cutting words and deeds bringing

My demise every closer

And yet you did not stop each

Pain each stab did bolster your

Resolve to finish me

To no longer see the glowing

Of my light for in your eyes

That devilish grin of the inevitable

End your thoughts would bring

To the smallness of my world

When my body they do bring from the

Depths of despair your back

You will turn without concern

As if I wasn’t there

For your coldness has spoken and

All hope was broken when you said

You no longer cared

There was no lie no last goodbye

For you were already empty

And lost now look upon my lifeless

Body now gone the only thing that

Could have repaired your brokenness of

Mind your heat you’ll soon find

Has gone the same way

you

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November 16, 2014

All my love

All my desires

All my dreams

How is it that all are rolled in to one

Or so it seems

All my passions

All my drives

All those things I see with my eyes

That possibility could somehow bring

How can it be that one could make me sing

Such a song of life

The words are universal

The words are all that I define as you

Wednesday 12 November 2014

In the distance

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November 12, 2014

It used to be so easy

To know those things

To do

Pick up something for

Me or for you

It used to be so easy

To find words to say

Lets go this or thata way

But things have become

Hard

No longer am I sure of

Playing the right card

It’s all more like a guessing

Game

Something’s changed something’s

So not the same

Is it me

Is it you

Not sure where to go or

Exactly what to do

Nothing seems to come out

Right

No words no emotion no

Holding you tight

Something’s changed and I

Don’t know what to do not

Really sure if it’s me or you

But our time seems to have

Passed and I fear we are lost

In the distance of each others

Love

I cry

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November 12, 2014

Sometimes I find myself smiling

When I think of you

No real reason not anything you

Just my imaginations eye seeing

You once more

Sometimes I find myself smiling

Almost laughing with you at those

Silly things that we did do and say

Sometimes I miss you and don’t

Want to say for fear of disturbing

Memories of what was or could

Have been

Sometimes I smile and stop what

It is I am doing to live a while longer

In memory of us we you and I

And then sometimes just sometimes

I cry

died in vain

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November 12, 2014

But that my heart would be broken once more

solitude closeness to the door of that place with

no entrance where I have been before but don’t

remember the way but that my heart would be

broken once more to live to feel to know for sure

that I have not died in vain

Sent from my iPhone

an eternity

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November 12, 2014

It’s not often that tears do bring

joy of remembrance at those things

of distance times and dreams of things

once remembered but never seen it’s not

often that tears do bring happiness to mind

and heart of things once lost before the start

of an eternity

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I’ve given up on being that token of your love

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November 12, 2014

Didn’t I give all there was to give didn’t I.
Didn’t I show all there was to show didn’t I.
Didn’t I go that extra mile didn’t I.
Didn’t I pretend not to know didn’t I.
Didn’t I stop and let you go didn’t I.
Didn’t I hide my pain from show didn’t I.
Didn’t I say it wasn’t so didn’t I.

Now no one has to know it was me
Now no one has to see
Now no one has to cry
Now no one has to say goodbye
Now no one has to feel the pain
Now no one has to pretend again

I’ve taken all the blame again
I’ve kept quiet while you’ve played this game
I’ve ignored the fact of being used
I’ve accepted that I’m not for you
I’ve allowed my heart to be broken
I’ve given up on being that token of your love