Tuesday, 2 December 2014
Saturday, 29 November 2014
Stay
Stay
Tell me of your dreams
Your plans to drown out
Those screams when your
Alone and the darkness
Calls to you by name and
History
Tell me of your dreams
In your blindness of despair
As you place those once
Close to you beneath the
Coldness of the ground never
Again to be found among
The living
Tell me of your dreams now
That your darkness is here to
Stay
Your plans to drown out
Those screams when your
Alone and the darkness
Calls to you by name and
History
Tell me of your dreams
In your blindness of despair
As you place those once
Close to you beneath the
Coldness of the ground never
Again to be found among
The living
Tell me of your dreams now
That your darkness is here to
Stay
Friday, 28 November 2014
Stay out of my head xx
I think we got lost along the way
No words remembered nor what
We wanted to say
Glazed eyes where dreams used to be
Do you remember do you still see me
The way I see you or at least I used to
I think we got lost along the way
Somewhere between I love you and is this how it is meant to be
No words remembered nor what
We wanted to say
Glazed eyes where dreams used to be
Do you remember do you still see me
The way I see you or at least I used to
I think we got lost along the way
Somewhere between I love you and is this how it is meant to be
Sunday, 16 November 2014
A passerby in life
A passerby in life
To find those things
That make you cry
That make you human
To be more than just
A passerby in life
To touch those
Souls that seem
To lose
True meaning
To speak such words
Of encouragement
Without at first
A screening for
Manipulations
Sake
To find those things
That make you cry
And know you
Are alive
the shadowThat is left of me
Did it happen that way
Is my mind playing tricks on me
Are those truly the words you did say
Surely I am mistaken
You could not be so cruel
Or did you intend for my heart
And mind to be broken
No chance of repair for truly
You no longer care for me
For if you could see the shadow
That is left of me you would somehow
Change your mind
When they find me you will ask
Was it something I did or said
Was there some other way I could have
Acted that would not have resulted
In your being dead
Those questions you will ask merely
For self preservation and a farce
For you saw it in my eyes those
Cutting words and deeds bringing
My demise every closer
And yet you did not stop each
Pain each stab did bolster your
Resolve to finish me
To no longer see the glowing
Of my light for in your eyes
That devilish grin of the inevitable
End your thoughts would bring
To the smallness of my world
When my body they do bring from the
Depths of despair your back
You will turn without concern
As if I wasn’t there
For your coldness has spoken and
All hope was broken when you said
You no longer cared
There was no lie no last goodbye
For you were already empty
And lost now look upon my lifeless
Body now gone the only thing that
Could have repaired your brokenness of
Mind your heat you’ll soon find
Has gone the same way
you
All my love
All my desires
All my dreams
How is it that all are rolled in to one
Or so it seems
All my passions
All my drives
All those things I see with my eyes
That possibility could somehow bring
How can it be that one could make me sing
Such a song of life
The words are universal
The words are all that I define as you
Wednesday, 12 November 2014
In the distance
It used to be so easy
To know those things
To do
Pick up something for
Me or for you
It used to be so easy
To find words to say
Lets go this or thata way
But things have become
Hard
No longer am I sure of
Playing the right card
It’s all more like a guessing
Game
Something’s changed something’s
So not the same
Is it me
Is it you
Not sure where to go or
Exactly what to do
Nothing seems to come out
Right
No words no emotion no
Holding you tight
Something’s changed and I
Don’t know what to do not
Really sure if it’s me or you
But our time seems to have
Passed and I fear we are lost
In the distance of each others
Love
I cry
Sometimes I find myself smiling
When I think of you
No real reason not anything you
Do
Just my imaginations eye seeing
You once more
Sometimes I find myself smiling
Almost laughing with you at those
Silly things that we did do and say
Sometimes I miss you and don’t
Want to say for fear of disturbing
Memories of what was or could
Have been
Sometimes I smile and stop what
It is I am doing to live a while longer
In memory of us we you and I
And then sometimes just sometimes
I cry
died in vain
But that my heart would be broken once more
solitude closeness to the door of that place with
no entrance where I have been before but don’t
remember the way but that my heart would be
broken once more to live to feel to know for sure
that I have not died in vain
Sent from my iPhone
an eternity
It’s not often that tears do bring
joy of remembrance at those things
of distance times and dreams of things
once remembered but never seen it’s not
often that tears do bring happiness to mind
and heart of things once lost before the start
of an eternity
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I’ve given up on being that token of your love
Didn’t I give all there was to give didn’t I.
Didn’t I show all there was to show didn’t I.
Didn’t I go that extra mile didn’t I.
Didn’t I pretend not to know didn’t I.
Didn’t I stop and let you go didn’t I.
Didn’t I hide my pain from show didn’t I.
Didn’t I say it wasn’t so didn’t I.
Didn’t I show all there was to show didn’t I.
Didn’t I go that extra mile didn’t I.
Didn’t I pretend not to know didn’t I.
Didn’t I stop and let you go didn’t I.
Didn’t I hide my pain from show didn’t I.
Didn’t I say it wasn’t so didn’t I.
Now no one has to know it was me
Now no one has to see
Now no one has to cry
Now no one has to say goodbye
Now no one has to feel the pain
Now no one has to pretend again
Now no one has to see
Now no one has to cry
Now no one has to say goodbye
Now no one has to feel the pain
Now no one has to pretend again
I’ve taken all the blame again
I’ve kept quiet while you’ve played this game
I’ve ignored the fact of being used
I’ve accepted that I’m not for you
I’ve allowed my heart to be broken
I’ve given up on being that token of your love
I’ve kept quiet while you’ve played this game
I’ve ignored the fact of being used
I’ve accepted that I’m not for you
I’ve allowed my heart to be broken
I’ve given up on being that token of your love
I would I would
If I could choose the heart and mind of another
that thing once lost and yet to discover all that
was before if I could choose what to lay in my
heart what guided me in darkness do you not
think I would start with your love with your
love if I could choose I would I would
Dryfoot Brixton gal Angela Ashbolt loveyalongtime
and in the future past
Be growth restricted to the accumulation of knowledge
Then my thoughts would wonder to another and the
Contemplation of a time and place within a space that
Was not mine to give and yet it must be found somewhere
Sound for a footing of that other to bring but suppose in that space
Within mine self there is able waiting to be found some other
Knowledge of now a way of being not often seen in its physicality
It is such to create a time now and in the future past
your time to die Mason
In it’s name it’s foundations were lain in the darkest of
Places with well covered faces of hate deceit and lies
Resting upon what once did belong to a deity of times
Gone by hidden by seclusion amidst the confusion it
Places within the minds eye that hidden message of
Hope in order to cope until your time to die Mason
one’s own restrictions of mind and Space
Does one see me with mine eye’s closed or mine
Heart open in the day or the night-time of ones
Dreams of distant realities for you and me let alone
Everyone else for such are the imaginations of love
To perceive that which is the ability to alter all things
In truth and light of one’s own restrictions of mind and
Space
Thursday, 6 November 2014
That which has already been perfection
Abandoned in that place of hope with so much to cope for
In that instance of realisation that all the frustration was mere
Indication of the scope of deceit which not unique is woven
Within that which has not been according to the authority on sin
It is but an elitist style to keep one blind with no intent to find
That which has already been perfection
Thursday, 30 October 2014
in the future past
Be growth restricted to the accumulation of knowledge
Then my thoughts would wonder to another and the
Contemplation of a time and place within a space that
Was not mine to give and yet it must be found somewhere
Sound for a footing of that other to bring but suppose in that space
Within mine self there is able waiting to be found some other
Knowledge of now a way of being not often seen in its physicality
It is such to create a time now and in the future past
Wednesday, 29 October 2014
justice unto itself
And yet you would see me fall as the sun does rise in the distance knowing my bones to be lost for ever more no mornings to see nor the coldness of night to call mine own lost love a justice unto itself
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Not a lot of my writings make it off the phone nowa days not wanting to share seeking like minded individuals and observance are responsible for my new found forms of self monitoring ;o ;s iixx
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